January 30, 2010
Why do I have a million questions for you? Why do they go unanswered in the middle of the night? It seems as if there are more things to life than just “love”, as one may perceive it. Here I am slowly dying inside with a million unanswered questions. My unrequited love has had my heart pounding for a good while since I met you. These 3 years have been something worthwhile I suppose. It’s a new start.. I hope. There is so much I would love for you to hear, perhaps I do say it on my away messages but each and every thing reminds me of you so much. I can not focus on my homework, I can’t focus with you constantly being on my mind. Is it possible to have a day where I do not want to just sleep it off? It was unlikely of me to be so down and it just seems like a cycle now. And you don’t even seem to care. Every little thing has gotten to me. Monday was surely a mistake. I thought I was ready to see you again. I was not. This is something I truly regret, but I have seen the truth. Never shall I want to look in your lying eyes again. Never will I want to breathe in your arms. Never would I be your number one. Never..
