January 30, 2010
Why do I have a million questions for you? Why do they go unanswered in the middle of the night? It seems as if there are more things to life than just “
love”, as one may perceive it. Here I am slowly dying inside with a million unanswered questions. My unrequited love has had my heart pounding for a good while since I met you. These 3 years have been something worthwhile I suppose. It’s a new start.. I hope. There is so much I would love for you to hear, perhaps I do say it on my away messages but each and every thing reminds me of you so much. I can not focus on my homework, I can’t focus with you constantly being on my mind. Is it possible to have a day where I do not want to just sleep it off? It was unlikely of me to be so down and it just seems like a cycle now. And you don’t even seem to care. Every little thing has gotten to me. Monday was surely a mistake. I thought I was ready to see you again. I was not. This is something I truly regret, but I have seen the truth. Never shall I want to look in your lying eyes again. Never will I want to breathe in your arms. Never would I be your number one. Never..